Life seems to have run away from me again. I have been painting again – I needed to take a break from my coursework because I was getting overwhelmed. I have worked a bit more on my Etsy shop and have added digital prints of most of my original paintings. November is fast approaching and I am still working on planning out the tale I will write for National Novel Writing Month. I am so sorry for neglecting this blog recently. It has not been easy, and I promise to try harder to spend more time here.
The world seems to have continued on without me as I sit here. I watch everything move, yet I am unmoving. I go about my days as if by clockwork. I know my duties, I know my routines, and yet I long for something more. I long for something other. I so wish the words would flow through me as they did with The Call of the Sea, that something would come from these thoughts and feelings that boil within my spirit.
I am finding words difficult to write here, for this post. I feel like I have lost my connection to the words, to the images, though I know that this is typical for me. Once I finish a writing a tale, I always have a period of disenchantment, a period of silence within my mind and soul that eats away at me. This is why I fill the gaps between tales with artwork, with coursework, with something to give my thoughts an outlet. I am hoping that this lull in activity will subside come November, but I know that it is a real possibility (as it always is) that it will continue on into the new year. I am ready for whatever my spirit needs of me, I just hope that it is something I can give it.
Sitting under the sky, with the clouds rolling over me, has given me some peace of mind. The storms are still on the horizon, the rain still threatens to drench this desert, but the promise of cooler days and a more ancestral feeling is in the air. I love Autumn. It is a time of inner work for me, a time of ancestor work and of honouring Place. I do not know what I will be doing this Autumn, but I hope to bring some things into my life that have been missing over the last year.
For now, here are some photos from a recent trip to New Mexico. I hope you enjoy them:
This cursed blank page, it taunts me with all of the possibilities, but no words seem to be coming through. Have I lost my connection to the well of inspiration deep within my spirit? Where are the tales that have been begging to be told? Where are the vivid images that flash across my vision? I have been so focused on my courses, perhaps I have dulled my senses to my Muse.
No, I do not believe that. I do, however, think that my immersion in my studies has been because of my lack of inspiration – I need something to fill my mind during this silence, and what better way than to work towards a goal I have had for years? I promise that I have not forgotten about this space, and I will work to post more often.
Until Next Time,
I recently finished reading a book that has been on my mental “to read” list for some time. Below is my review of it:
Interview with the Vampire: Claudia’s Story by Ashley Marie Witter
My rating: 5 of 5 stars
I had seen this graphic novel for some time, but never really had the urge to buy it. I had a love/hate relationship with Claudia while reading through the series, but when my best friend offered to buy it for me, I couldn’t resist. And I was not disappointed.
The first thing I noticed was the artwork – it is so detailed and so beautiful, it literally brought tears to my eyes. Each page is a true masterpiece, and the artist captured the characters perfectly. She took Anne Rice’s descriptions and turned them into people, not just words or images in my mind – she made them real.
As for the actual storyline, I was pleasantly surprised to find that it was well written. It is obviously from Claudia’s point of view, and having that insight into her thoughts and feelings about the entire ordeal of her creation and life was eye-opening. It gave me more of a fondness for the character, a softness that I hadn’t had before.
Overall, this is an amazing read and I will be recommending it to anyone I know that has enjoyed Anne Rice’s vampires.
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“The advantage of a bad memory is that one enjoys several times the same good things for the first time.”
― Friedrich Nietzsche
No, I have not forgotten you. Many things have been happening, some of which I am not too comfortable with sharing here, at this moment. Changes are happening, within me and without me – some are for the better, some are seemingly worsening my situation. However, I am handling things with a grace that I have rarely shown in the past. Is it true that, as you age, you get wiser? Where does that wisdom come from, I wonder.
Something I am willing to share at this point is my journey through education. I have chosen to put forth the effort of doing self-paced coursework. I believe I have spoken, briefly, of my Bardic studies – those are still being done. However, I have also added in a few other courses through an online seminary, as well as my own studies of Gaelic, English Composition, Maths, and Life Coaching. If you find yourself interested in reading about my journey, you can follow the link below:
Starlit Dreams Assignments
I do promise that I have not forgotten you, my loves. I have just been rather self-absorbed. I hope to get back to normal in the coming weeks, but I cannot make any promises. You are forever in my heart <3